Lady brain

Doodle mania, inspiration from pintrest.

My life so far

Well able

The hum of soft labour

A slow awakening

Realisation

That you

As all others have said before

You are,

Those you didn't believe, 

You are 

Well able. 

She

That strand of sinew 

That pulls a little

Farther than it should

That echo of pain

Wrapped in a smile

Hidden by the eyes

I know what she sees

I see what she is

I've seen it deep

She walks with a stride

Looks in each reflected pool

Carries her bag like a small child

She has it

The weight of others love

The talent, the gift

The pain of the weight

Of the love

Creaks

Like a oak hewn table

Under levels of love

Creaks

But holds

Under the weight

Of this love. 

Go

Wait a while
Sit and see
See the whole world
Rush to meet
Your feet

The chest feels tight
The breath filling
Shallow and quick
The eyes blur
The focus shifts

Take the quick breath
Feel the muscles hurt
Feel them pull
And scrape and tear

As you pull yourself
Up
From that seat
That chair
Where you sat
Waiting

It's your turn now
But you've grown comfortable
Waiting
Happily sitting

Afraid of the pain
Afraid of the change
Afraid of the fear
You feel

So you stay where you know
and become an expert
At sitting
At waiting

Ignore your name called
Ignore the signs
And watch the others
pass you by.

Destructions

Followed to a point
Early often the point
Where sheets are crumpled
and the panic set in
Each section placed
A screw lost
A side unseen
A list missed
The key
To turn
Suspiciously absent

And it sets,
It builds
the panic
the cost
the anger
the fear

damp it down
take a breath
pretend and pretend

sit back and wait
wait and clear
and find
find find
under the chairs
the couch
the wall
the fridge
the next room. and you find it
the one thing
under your boot
under you
you were the biggest destruction
in your own way.

but hey
you have it now
and get on with it.