Waiting

I've been waiting. 

expecting

hoping

dreaming

to see someone finally there

a perfect monstrosity

someone perfect for me.

and they told me he would come

'be lining up outside the door'

'you will have your choice'

oh I have choices alright

be alone or be with someone

someone who doesn't really like me 

for what I really am.

someone who has a dream of me

someone who doesn't care what I do

someone who is free

someone who leaves me alone

it's the same as being alone

so where do I stand?

what do I choose?

To leave them? 

to see if there is that perfect out there for me?

or to stay,

and let them leave me

let them not care

let them life a 'free' life

calling me up whenever they feel like it

seeing me whenever it's best for them

I want someone who wants to see me

someone who I can trust

to keep their promises

to do what they say

being in a relationship

means compromise

means restriction

so why do people do it?

if it takes away freedom?

I don't think it takes away my freedom

I love to mind

to protect

to care for

I love knowing that I will be minded

protected

cared for

well I think I do

it hasn't happened yet.